Blogger guilt. Sigh. I feel like 80% of my posts are apologies for my absence.
I’m probably the worst blogger out there. 9 months since a blog post. 9 months in which, it’s safe to say have been some of the hardest I’ve had in a long time. I’m not going to go into detail, but I’m now hoping that 2018 is the fresh start I need to move on.
I have been thinking long and hard about the direction I wanted to take this blog. Probably for more than the 9 month leave of absence I just took…I posted almost every day for two years, and then around mid 2015, I just stopped. Numb, tired and fazed. Blogging just didn’t seem what it used to be. Were people even reading each others blogs? Were we just leaving vanity comments for links? I just felt fed up, over it and tired. I wasn’t lucky enough to be able to quit my job and blog full time, so my life needs to fit around my blog.
I’m not the only blogger out there feeling like this. Though we’re saturated, blogging is bigger and more exciting than ever before. But why do I feel so damn guilty, every time I see a fellow blogger tweeting?!
What is ‘blogger guilt’?
Psychology Today reckons that guilt can take many forms, one of which being ‘If you think you did something wrong, you can experience almost as much guilt as if you actually committed the act — or even more’
‘The act’ here for me, is neglecting something I was once in love with, in my case, writing and blogging. After some pretty awful events in 2017, everything took a back seat. My mental health and confidence took huge knocks, I encountered real grief for the first time in two decades, I questioned my entire career (more on that to come in later blogs!).
When 2017 came to a close, I was starting to feel like my old self again, I’ve joined a gym again, I started loving fashion and make up once more. My travel bug is back too.
I’m not going to let Blogger Guilt consume me anymore. I am no longer going to feel bad for not wanting to write on some days. I know it’s okay to be selfish.
I don’t get to write as much as I used to, and I want this to be my main outlet; so ultimately, anything goes. If I can post 4 times in one week, then I will, if I miss a couple of posts, I’m not going to worry. There’s already enough pressure in our lives, a hobby shouldn’t be a burden.
2018 has me more motivated, more eager and more determined than ever before and can’t wait to share it all with you.